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oh jello
Nov. 8th, 2008 | 03:57 am
Married. Happy. No Immigration crap for 2 years. School. :D
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Update cause I never do
Aug. 22nd, 2007 | 07:11 pm
Well I have really let my stress get to me. So i think I need another out besides talking. I have a tendincy to not express exactly what it is I am feeling with spoken words. In fact I rarely tend to think before I open my mouth these days. I wasn't always this way. I was made this way. By years of people walking over me. Yeah I knew I was just always afraid to say anything that made me look mean. Now I say mean stuff all the time without thinking. I need to get back to thinking. Just me myself and I. I used to be so polite and always heard 4 things in my head before speaking.. but now. I just speak. Or don't speak at all resorting to bottling up my feelings until... I do speak that WHAM it ALL comes out wrong wrong wrong. So I am honing in on good old fashioned thinking.
So stress stress. Why am I stressed? Well me and Thomas are going through the immigration process. No there is nothing to stress about right now. For those of you who don't know Thomas is my fiance'. He is from Denmark and we have known eachother since we were 15. Both stupid teens on the web looking for some chat buddies. Well Thomas is the only online buddy I kept in contact with. So many online buddies come and go. But Thomas was always there. When I had a problem we would work it out together. The only way we knew how. He was counted as one of my best friends eventhough he lived so far away. I was with him during his break-ups. He was with me during my problems at school. He was there. We were eachothers rocks. The only safe place to go to really feel protected. And we hadn't even met. The years went by. We grew up a little more each year. We grew up together in every way that matters. In the end up 2004 we didn't talk every day like we usually did. We both regreted this very much. I had work and when I was home he was sleeping an vica versa. I quit my job and was able to talk again all the time. We had become closer. In March of 2005 I finally fessed up to feelings I had been having for him for a couple of years. To my utter shock he held the same feelings. Where was I to go? How was I to proceed? We set a date to meet but that didn't come to pass until November 2006. Oh dear gods I was nervous to meet him. I kept telling myself.. you know him pull yourself together man. So we finally met in Cleveland airport. We already knew we loved eachother. But you ever get that feeling where you are frozen with love. You can't move. you can't breathe.. You can't hear anything and you could swear on holiness your heart has stopped. That's how I felt when I finally put my arms around him and could feel he was feeling what I was. Amazing. I never thought it would be like that. I always thought he would get one look at me in the living breathing flesh and run. But alas I was a fool. When I saw him looking at me the way I looked at him.... how does one explain? I kissed him right there in the airport. I still smile from ear to ear thinking about that. Well we spent 3 glorious months together. But February came and he had to go. Sad beyond sad. I cried all the way to the airport.. and the days to continue. 2 months later I went to the fabulous Denmark... well not so fabulous to me. And there he was waiting for me. I saw him walking in his camo pants.. bed messy hair. I was home.. with him. The only place I have truely felt safe. So I spent 3 months there. But again we had to separate. I cried with him upon parting. I cried up the stairs to my gate. I cried through my bag search. I cried waiting in my terminal. Ok you get it I cried.
So there is the back story you need to know that I still cry now. While I was at Thomas' house we started our paperwork for or fiance' visa which brings us up to speed. So now I am pretty stressed about when we are going to get our second approval notice. It drives me crazy. I just need to be with him. So that's why I am going back to him in November. Hopefully we'll have an interview date by then and we can both go in copenhagen. We talk on skype everyday.. most of the day when we can. But talking doesn't substitute being with eachother. So yeah. That's my first post.
So stress stress. Why am I stressed? Well me and Thomas are going through the immigration process. No there is nothing to stress about right now. For those of you who don't know Thomas is my fiance'. He is from Denmark and we have known eachother since we were 15. Both stupid teens on the web looking for some chat buddies. Well Thomas is the only online buddy I kept in contact with. So many online buddies come and go. But Thomas was always there. When I had a problem we would work it out together. The only way we knew how. He was counted as one of my best friends eventhough he lived so far away. I was with him during his break-ups. He was with me during my problems at school. He was there. We were eachothers rocks. The only safe place to go to really feel protected. And we hadn't even met. The years went by. We grew up a little more each year. We grew up together in every way that matters. In the end up 2004 we didn't talk every day like we usually did. We both regreted this very much. I had work and when I was home he was sleeping an vica versa. I quit my job and was able to talk again all the time. We had become closer. In March of 2005 I finally fessed up to feelings I had been having for him for a couple of years. To my utter shock he held the same feelings. Where was I to go? How was I to proceed? We set a date to meet but that didn't come to pass until November 2006. Oh dear gods I was nervous to meet him. I kept telling myself.. you know him pull yourself together man. So we finally met in Cleveland airport. We already knew we loved eachother. But you ever get that feeling where you are frozen with love. You can't move. you can't breathe.. You can't hear anything and you could swear on holiness your heart has stopped. That's how I felt when I finally put my arms around him and could feel he was feeling what I was. Amazing. I never thought it would be like that. I always thought he would get one look at me in the living breathing flesh and run. But alas I was a fool. When I saw him looking at me the way I looked at him.... how does one explain? I kissed him right there in the airport. I still smile from ear to ear thinking about that. Well we spent 3 glorious months together. But February came and he had to go. Sad beyond sad. I cried all the way to the airport.. and the days to continue. 2 months later I went to the fabulous Denmark... well not so fabulous to me. And there he was waiting for me. I saw him walking in his camo pants.. bed messy hair. I was home.. with him. The only place I have truely felt safe. So I spent 3 months there. But again we had to separate. I cried with him upon parting. I cried up the stairs to my gate. I cried through my bag search. I cried waiting in my terminal. Ok you get it I cried.
So there is the back story you need to know that I still cry now. While I was at Thomas' house we started our paperwork for or fiance' visa which brings us up to speed. So now I am pretty stressed about when we are going to get our second approval notice. It drives me crazy. I just need to be with him. So that's why I am going back to him in November. Hopefully we'll have an interview date by then and we can both go in copenhagen. We talk on skype everyday.. most of the day when we can. But talking doesn't substitute being with eachother. So yeah. That's my first post.
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Writer's Block: Who's in your neighborhood
Jun. 17th, 2007 | 12:12 am
How well do you know your next-door neighbors?
Well enough to know that there are 4 people. A woman who is in her 40's she has a 9 year old daughter. Also living there is her father and mother. The father who has to be in his early 70's is crazy as horse shit and pops out of the bushes at 12 am and tells you how bad social security benefits are for the elderly. He also insists on telling anyone who listens that he can see lovely bikini clad young women from his back porch and watching them is one of his favorite pastimes.
The mother also has to be in her late early 70's unfortunalitly she is dying of cancer. she is in bad shape and I mourn for her. Not only because she cancer but because she is kept awake all night by the constant rap battles and fist fights. But i will get to that.
The daughter of the 40ish woman is very very very very bad. She was expelled from school for CONSTANTLY yelling and swearing at the teacher. Also recently learned about young child is the fact that does crack. She stays up all night bouncing off the walls. The 40ish mother can't get her to sleep worth shit. She hangs around with 40ish crackheaded older men in crackhouses where they give her drugs such as pot and crack and alcohol. Yes that was a bad runon sentence but that's what i do. She runs the neighborhood all night and steals her mothers money. How do I know this. the 40ish mother tells ALL!!!! On her she seems like a nice lady. A bad mother but she takes care of sick mother and for that I commend her. But she needs to get a grip on her daughter. That crazy twat!
Across the street are the truest or true redneck-ghetto trash. There are like 4 young girls between 15 and 20 WHORES. They have like 12 black boys hanging off the front porch fawning over them all the time while they booze up and get pregnant. Yes I know they are pregnant cause noone has a belly like that. Even if you are 400 lbs.. The mother who lives there looks like she has a skin problem could be bad. Who knows?? She's nice I like her. she gets in fights with 15 year old black gilrs when they come round at 3 am in the morning. This surely caused light of blue and red to stream through every curtain within a short distance. But she's nice. She hit our car once and was really nice about it. There are I think 4 40ish men living there too. One is an alcoholic. Two are alcoholics................... let me stop myself now. They are ALL alcoholics. Cunts. And then there is GRANDPA as we call him whom whenever you walk out of the house says. GOODMORNING BEAUTIFUL.. .or YOU LOOK MIGHTY DELICIOUS TODAY.. No matter the time of day or gender. Fun fellow.
Next to them is a black lady and a white guy. They have 2 of the most beautiful kids you will ever see in your life. And I mean that. They are gorgeous. But aside from that they have parties EVERY weekend and a few weekdays. They play rap music out of speakers that must have cost a lot cause damn. They are loud. Not to mention they had rap battles and DJ sometimes. Not professional just someone to spin that shit. And they smoke weed while all the kids run barefoot in the driveway.
Welcome to Lorain Ohio.
Well enough to know that there are 4 people. A woman who is in her 40's she has a 9 year old daughter. Also living there is her father and mother. The father who has to be in his early 70's is crazy as horse shit and pops out of the bushes at 12 am and tells you how bad social security benefits are for the elderly. He also insists on telling anyone who listens that he can see lovely bikini clad young women from his back porch and watching them is one of his favorite pastimes.
The mother also has to be in her late early 70's unfortunalitly she is dying of cancer. she is in bad shape and I mourn for her. Not only because she cancer but because she is kept awake all night by the constant rap battles and fist fights. But i will get to that.
The daughter of the 40ish woman is very very very very bad. She was expelled from school for CONSTANTLY yelling and swearing at the teacher. Also recently learned about young child is the fact that does crack. She stays up all night bouncing off the walls. The 40ish mother can't get her to sleep worth shit. She hangs around with 40ish crackheaded older men in crackhouses where they give her drugs such as pot and crack and alcohol. Yes that was a bad runon sentence but that's what i do. She runs the neighborhood all night and steals her mothers money. How do I know this. the 40ish mother tells ALL!!!! On her she seems like a nice lady. A bad mother but she takes care of sick mother and for that I commend her. But she needs to get a grip on her daughter. That crazy twat!
Across the street are the truest or true redneck-ghetto trash. There are like 4 young girls between 15 and 20 WHORES. They have like 12 black boys hanging off the front porch fawning over them all the time while they booze up and get pregnant. Yes I know they are pregnant cause noone has a belly like that. Even if you are 400 lbs.. The mother who lives there looks like she has a skin problem could be bad. Who knows?? She's nice I like her. she gets in fights with 15 year old black gilrs when they come round at 3 am in the morning. This surely caused light of blue and red to stream through every curtain within a short distance. But she's nice. She hit our car once and was really nice about it. There are I think 4 40ish men living there too. One is an alcoholic. Two are alcoholics................... let me stop myself now. They are ALL alcoholics. Cunts. And then there is GRANDPA as we call him whom whenever you walk out of the house says. GOODMORNING BEAUTIFUL.. .or YOU LOOK MIGHTY DELICIOUS TODAY.. No matter the time of day or gender. Fun fellow.
Next to them is a black lady and a white guy. They have 2 of the most beautiful kids you will ever see in your life. And I mean that. They are gorgeous. But aside from that they have parties EVERY weekend and a few weekdays. They play rap music out of speakers that must have cost a lot cause damn. They are loud. Not to mention they had rap battles and DJ sometimes. Not professional just someone to spin that shit. And they smoke weed while all the kids run barefoot in the driveway.
Welcome to Lorain Ohio.
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Feb. 27th, 2007 | 02:05 am
So yeah I having some annoyances. We ordered our wedding rings 3 weeks ago. About a week in I called and asked why we hadn't gotten a confirmation e-mail. The lady said that she had to verify the credit card. But she tells me the rings would be here by the end of last week. But ummm they still aren't here. But I see on the website they have been sent to the shop for final processing. But still. That shit pissed me off. First off we paid $600.00 for just 2 wedding bands. And $40.00 for certified shipping.I know that may seem cheap to some but that is a lot of money to me. I mean the place is legit and all but it is pissing me off that she told me we would get them last week and they STILL aren't here.
Wicca killed a cat and it was terrible. I petted it until it died. It was eating our garbage and I didn't see. I let her out to pee and i heard growling and yowling. By the time I got out there it was too late. Thomas got her in and I picked up the cat and took it on the front porch in hopes it was just roughed up a bit. But it died within 15 minutes. I petted it and stayed the whole time. It was awful. I wish I could have done something.
I am almost ready to register for school. I just have to go to the college and take a placement test. I will start in June. I am excited about that. I have had a lot of anxeity problems these past 6 months but I think I am starting to come out of it. The main source of my anxeity and being anxious about being anxious. So now I am slowly woking past that.
Thomas is settling nice here in the USA. It's so nice to know he is here forever. It's just amazing how well he fits right into the family. And wicca just loves him to pieces. He is like her shining beacon of light.
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Jul. 9th, 2006 | 07:43 pm
I went to Amber's on the 2nd. The drive was nice as usual! I turned up my radio and just jammed and drove. It was a really nice day! After 2 hours of driving I got there. Only amber's mom was home which was odd seeings how there are so many people in that house. I just sat and tried to fix their computer.. to no avail. They have been using their computer for naughty things tisk tisk. But the next day I fixed that bitch cause I am special like that.
The next day was more eventful. Christine thought she went into labor. But it was false. She had been in labor for 6 days. She is still in labor. Poor girl. Anyways the fourth it rained most of the day and quit just in time for fireworks. Me,Amber and Shelly went. They are not as good as up here but the ending was so much better! We had to sit in a puddle it was kinda funny. I left around 11 am the next day came home and yay. I had a great time. I willprobably go back when Christine has the baby.
Thomas will be here in 4 months yes!! I am so excited. He is staying 2 months. In my bed mmm.. *cough* anyways that's all for now!
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tired
Jun. 25th, 2006 | 06:12 am
I changed LJ names... yay I have joined the masses. In 4 months Thomas is coming home and we are gonna make babies... hehe not really but yea anyways. I can't wait I am sooooo excited! I just love him so much. I am going down to Amber's grandmas for the 4th which should be fun. Me and Kara were supposed to go but seeings how kara is not it the picture anymore it will be just I and I am very thankful for that. I love trips with myself.. noone has to fight over the radio.. or if there is too much wind.. good times. It's really late(or early to those on a regular sleeping schedule).. so I must go to bed..
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Slightly Sane. check. Love. check.
Mar. 31st, 2005 | 03:05 am
I am way overdue for an update in this journal. I just forget about it for the most part. So now is a time for a big huge ass update. now my only problem is where to begin.
Ok Job. I quit at blockbuster for various reasons. But I just learned yesterday that basically everything that was pissing me off was little things to push my buttons and make me want to quit. I don't need that shit. I am not in a job to play mind games. i am sorry but I was a better worker than most of those people there. I did my job. and for 2 years i did it fucking well. But a soon as you get a new manager in the place everyone fucking falls over themselves and forgets where their loyalties lie. Not to mention the new manager is a complete asshole. we did not mix at all. Blockbutser is just fucked up as it is. They have way to many dos and don'ts. I don't need that piece of shit job. I find myself missing the people though. I stopped by there yesterday. I talked to Deb for a long time. She is the coolest woman over 40 I know. It was nice. I really miss Allyn too. He has the same sick and twisted humor as I do and that's what I loved about him. I miss Shirley too. People I miss... Nothing else though.
Alright. Love. I am so completely and utterly in love. Yes the L word. How do you explain a feeling like that? I can't. And not to sound cliche' but I had no idea what love was until him. I just never thought I could have such feelings about someone and 100% know they have them back. It's just weird. Oh I love it. God I love him. And I don't give a fuck who knows it. I love thomas. I love thomas. god I love thomas. Everything. Just everything....
Whatever else. hmmm. I dunno. I am starting to win the battle with myself. I am just out of control sometimes. Lol.. But I am starting to tame myself. I know that is some weird shit. I am getting rid of my inner demons one by one. Not saying they are gone. But I am coming to terms with things. I got my lip pierced too. because I am cool...It's just so hot. I am getting another one too. I just love body modification. Kara got one too. It's hot too. Fun stuff. I guess that's good for now.
Ok Job. I quit at blockbuster for various reasons. But I just learned yesterday that basically everything that was pissing me off was little things to push my buttons and make me want to quit. I don't need that shit. I am not in a job to play mind games. i am sorry but I was a better worker than most of those people there. I did my job. and for 2 years i did it fucking well. But a soon as you get a new manager in the place everyone fucking falls over themselves and forgets where their loyalties lie. Not to mention the new manager is a complete asshole. we did not mix at all. Blockbutser is just fucked up as it is. They have way to many dos and don'ts. I don't need that piece of shit job. I find myself missing the people though. I stopped by there yesterday. I talked to Deb for a long time. She is the coolest woman over 40 I know. It was nice. I really miss Allyn too. He has the same sick and twisted humor as I do and that's what I loved about him. I miss Shirley too. People I miss... Nothing else though.
Alright. Love. I am so completely and utterly in love. Yes the L word. How do you explain a feeling like that? I can't. And not to sound cliche' but I had no idea what love was until him. I just never thought I could have such feelings about someone and 100% know they have them back. It's just weird. Oh I love it. God I love him. And I don't give a fuck who knows it. I love thomas. I love thomas. god I love thomas. Everything. Just everything....
Whatever else. hmmm. I dunno. I am starting to win the battle with myself. I am just out of control sometimes. Lol.. But I am starting to tame myself. I know that is some weird shit. I am getting rid of my inner demons one by one. Not saying they are gone. But I am coming to terms with things. I got my lip pierced too. because I am cool...It's just so hot. I am getting another one too. I just love body modification. Kara got one too. It's hot too. Fun stuff. I guess that's good for now.
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surveyyy
Dec. 5th, 2004 | 03:35 am
----------HAVE YOU EVER------------
* Flown on a plane: no
* Missed school because it was raining: Only when it flooded in like 3rd grade
* Ran away from home: well I left home once but came back
* Used your parents credit card: yeah
* Fell asleep in the shower/bath: no
* Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: Yes
* Put a body part on fire for amusement: Pyro
* Had a crush on a friends girlfriend/boyfriend: no
* Been hurt emotionally: yes
* Had an imaginary friend: no
* Wanted to hook up with a friend: no
*Ever thought an animated character was hot?: A few actually Link from Zelda and that dude from Anastasia
* Been on stage: yeah
* Cut your hair: yes
* Had crush on a teacher? no
----------FAVORITES--------------
* Shampoo: Aussie Moist
* Fav Color: Yellow and Orange
* Day/Night: night
*Summer/Winter: fall
* Cartoon Character: I guess Stewie from Family guy
* Fave Food: Chinese
* Fave Advertisement: That one where the guy has that vaccum cell phone kinda and he crumples up the paper and it shoots out.. and then his shirt gets sucked off
* Fave Movie: Mighty Ducks Movies
* Fave Drink: Orange Juice
* Fave Person to talk to online: Thomas, Danny
* Fave sport: None
----------RIGHT NOW-----------
* Wearing: Night Pants, Night shirt and robe
* Eating: nothing
* Drinking: Nestea
* Thinking about: I wish I knew Spanish (I would know what this chick is saying)
* Listening to: J.D. Natasha- Ingredientes
* Whats the weather like? Cold
. l o v e.
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* Had a boyfriend/girlfriend: yes
* Been in love: I am gonna say yes and no
* Regretted going out with someone: yes
* Been hurt: yes
----------IN THE LAST 24 HRS----------
* Worn jeans: no
* Met someone New online: no
* Done laundry: no
* Drove in a car: yes
* Talked on the phone: if the phone at work counts than yes
* Kissed someone: no
* Said "I love you": yes
---------DO YOU BELIEVE IN---------
* Yourself: Nope
* Your friends: yes
* Santa Clause: He is a jolly fellow.. we drink tea often
* Destiny/Fate: Yes
* Angels: Yes
* Ghosts: Oh Yes
* UFO's: Yes
* God: Yes
* Magic: YEs
--------FRIENDS AND LIFE----------
* Do you ever wish you had another name? no I love my name it’s the coolest
* Do you like anyone? I like a lot of people
* Which one of your friends acts the most like you?: Kara but she is crazier (like funny crazy) than I am and I am more of an asshole than she is.
* Who have you known the longest of your friends: Kara
* Who's the loudest: Kara
* Who's the shyest: Hmm I don’t know any shy people
* Are you close to any family members?: All of them
* Who's the weirdest: Well I guess me because I am Bohemian as Kara calls me
* Who do you hang out with the most? Kara
* When you cried the most: When my cat ran away
* What's the best feeling in the world: To love and be loved in return
* Worst Feeling: Depression
* Do you want all your friends to do this fill it out and send it back to you? Not really
*what time is it now? 4:38 a.m.
--------FINISH EACH SENTENCE:--------
Let's walk in the: living room
Let's run through:the water and pretend to be mermaids
Let's look at the: That funny guy in the robot suit
What a nice: too bad an asshole is driving it
where did all the: cookies go?
where in the world:is Carmen sandiego
When will they: operessing my people
How are: your kids?
Why can't you: shut the fuck up
Silly, little:boys
Show me some: money
the sky is: falling
Tell me: all about it
Hide me: away from the world
Love me: or fuck off
I hate your stupid: mother
My mom thinks you're: funny
He's not:aware that lurking behind the corner was a dark man with a long coat waiting to seduce him.
Are you that: fucking stupid?
--------HAVE YOU EVER----------
1. Kissed your cousin: Yea but not in that perverted incestuous way.
2. Pictured your crush naked: Of coarse
3. skipped school: Enough to not be a student anymore
4. Broken someone's heart: Maybe
5. Cried when someone died: just once
6. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: yes
7. Done something embarrasing: everyday of my life
8. Cried in school: yea
-------WHICH IS BETTER-------
13. Coke or Pepsi: coke
14. Sprite or 7UP: sprite (it’s a coke product)
15. Girls or Guys: depends
17. Scruff or Clean shaved: that depends too
18. Blondes or Brunettes: brunettes
19. Bitchy or Slutty: I prefer nice and virginal thanks
20. Tall or Short: dosnt matter
21. Pants or Shorts: pants.
22. Night or Day: night
-------WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX---------
23. What do you notice first: eyes
24. Last person you slow danced with: That’s a tough one
-------THE LAST TIME YOU...----------
26. Showered: some hours ago
27. Stepped outside: 4 hours ago
28. Had Sex: yesterday of coarse
29. Romantic memory: hmm
-------RANDOMS-------
30. Your Good Luck Charm: My ring
31. Person You Hate Most: well Annette.. but I need to get over that
32. Best Thing That Has Happened to you: Life
33. On your desk: Oh geez.. hand sanitizer,candles,dvd’s. matches, vhs, pencils, paper an empty bowl
34. Picture on your desktop: Queer as Folk Men
39. Ice Cream: Mint Chocolate Chip
41. Breakfast Food: I am not into breakfast
--------WHO---------
42. Makes you laugh the most: Kara
43. Makes you smile: Wicca.Kara,amber,thomas
44. Can make you feel better no matter what: Wicca
45. Has A Crush On You: no one as far as i know
46. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: Sometimes
47. Who Has it easier? Girls or Guys?: Guys
---------DO YOU EVER--------
49. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: Hell no
50. Save AIM conversations: nFUCK no
51. Save E-mails: sometimes
52. Forward secret E-mails: I will slit some throats if I get forwards so no.
53. Wish you were someone else: sometimes
54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: no
55. Wear calogne/perfume: yes
56. Kiss: Sure
57. Cuddle: With wicca yes
58. Go online for longer than eight hours at a time: no
--------HAVE YOU EVER---------
59. Fallen for your best friend?: no
60. Made out with JUST a friend?: no
61. Kissed two people in the same day?: no
62 Had sex with two different people in the same day?: no
68. Cheated on someone?: no
69. Been cheated on?: not as far as i know
71. Done something you regret?: yeah
--------DO YOU...-----------
82. Color your hair? Let me count the colors
83. Have tattoos?: i want too
84. Have piercings?: yea
85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:no
86. Own a webcam?: yes
87. Own a thong?: haha, no
88. Ever get off the damn computer? yea.
89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?: I failed German BECAUSE I WASN’T THERE
90. Habla espanol: I would like to
91. Quack?: MIGHTY DUCKS!!!
* Flown on a plane: no
* Missed school because it was raining: Only when it flooded in like 3rd grade
* Ran away from home: well I left home once but came back
* Used your parents credit card: yeah
* Fell asleep in the shower/bath: no
* Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: Yes
* Put a body part on fire for amusement: Pyro
* Had a crush on a friends girlfriend/boyfriend: no
* Been hurt emotionally: yes
* Had an imaginary friend: no
* Wanted to hook up with a friend: no
*Ever thought an animated character was hot?: A few actually Link from Zelda and that dude from Anastasia
* Been on stage: yeah
* Cut your hair: yes
* Had crush on a teacher? no
----------FAVORITES--------------
* Shampoo: Aussie Moist
* Fav Color: Yellow and Orange
* Day/Night: night
*Summer/Winter: fall
* Cartoon Character: I guess Stewie from Family guy
* Fave Food: Chinese
* Fave Advertisement: That one where the guy has that vaccum cell phone kinda and he crumples up the paper and it shoots out.. and then his shirt gets sucked off
* Fave Movie: Mighty Ducks Movies
* Fave Drink: Orange Juice
* Fave Person to talk to online: Thomas, Danny
* Fave sport: None
----------RIGHT NOW-----------
* Wearing: Night Pants, Night shirt and robe
* Eating: nothing
* Drinking: Nestea
* Thinking about: I wish I knew Spanish (I would know what this chick is saying)
* Listening to: J.D. Natasha- Ingredientes
* Whats the weather like? Cold
. l o v e.
------------
* Had a boyfriend/girlfriend: yes
* Been in love: I am gonna say yes and no
* Regretted going out with someone: yes
* Been hurt: yes
----------IN THE LAST 24 HRS----------
* Worn jeans: no
* Met someone New online: no
* Done laundry: no
* Drove in a car: yes
* Talked on the phone: if the phone at work counts than yes
* Kissed someone: no
* Said "I love you": yes
---------DO YOU BELIEVE IN---------
* Yourself: Nope
* Your friends: yes
* Santa Clause: He is a jolly fellow.. we drink tea often
* Destiny/Fate: Yes
* Angels: Yes
* Ghosts: Oh Yes
* UFO's: Yes
* God: Yes
* Magic: YEs
--------FRIENDS AND LIFE----------
* Do you ever wish you had another name? no I love my name it’s the coolest
* Do you like anyone? I like a lot of people
* Which one of your friends acts the most like you?: Kara but she is crazier (like funny crazy) than I am and I am more of an asshole than she is.
* Who have you known the longest of your friends: Kara
* Who's the loudest: Kara
* Who's the shyest: Hmm I don’t know any shy people
* Are you close to any family members?: All of them
* Who's the weirdest: Well I guess me because I am Bohemian as Kara calls me
* Who do you hang out with the most? Kara
* When you cried the most: When my cat ran away
* What's the best feeling in the world: To love and be loved in return
* Worst Feeling: Depression
* Do you want all your friends to do this fill it out and send it back to you? Not really
*what time is it now? 4:38 a.m.
--------FINISH EACH SENTENCE:--------
Let's walk in the: living room
Let's run through:the water and pretend to be mermaids
Let's look at the: That funny guy in the robot suit
What a nice: too bad an asshole is driving it
where did all the: cookies go?
where in the world:is Carmen sandiego
When will they: operessing my people
How are: your kids?
Why can't you: shut the fuck up
Silly, little:boys
Show me some: money
the sky is: falling
Tell me: all about it
Hide me: away from the world
Love me: or fuck off
I hate your stupid: mother
My mom thinks you're: funny
He's not:aware that lurking behind the corner was a dark man with a long coat waiting to seduce him.
Are you that: fucking stupid?
--------HAVE YOU EVER----------
1. Kissed your cousin: Yea but not in that perverted incestuous way.
2. Pictured your crush naked: Of coarse
3. skipped school: Enough to not be a student anymore
4. Broken someone's heart: Maybe
5. Cried when someone died: just once
6. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: yes
7. Done something embarrasing: everyday of my life
8. Cried in school: yea
-------WHICH IS BETTER-------
13. Coke or Pepsi: coke
14. Sprite or 7UP: sprite (it’s a coke product)
15. Girls or Guys: depends
17. Scruff or Clean shaved: that depends too
18. Blondes or Brunettes: brunettes
19. Bitchy or Slutty: I prefer nice and virginal thanks
20. Tall or Short: dosnt matter
21. Pants or Shorts: pants.
22. Night or Day: night
-------WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX---------
23. What do you notice first: eyes
24. Last person you slow danced with: That’s a tough one
-------THE LAST TIME YOU...----------
26. Showered: some hours ago
27. Stepped outside: 4 hours ago
28. Had Sex: yesterday of coarse
29. Romantic memory: hmm
-------RANDOMS-------
30. Your Good Luck Charm: My ring
31. Person You Hate Most: well Annette.. but I need to get over that
32. Best Thing That Has Happened to you: Life
33. On your desk: Oh geez.. hand sanitizer,candles,dvd’s. matches, vhs, pencils, paper an empty bowl
34. Picture on your desktop: Queer as Folk Men
39. Ice Cream: Mint Chocolate Chip
41. Breakfast Food: I am not into breakfast
--------WHO---------
42. Makes you laugh the most: Kara
43. Makes you smile: Wicca.Kara,amber,thomas
44. Can make you feel better no matter what: Wicca
45. Has A Crush On You: no one as far as i know
46. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: Sometimes
47. Who Has it easier? Girls or Guys?: Guys
---------DO YOU EVER--------
49. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: Hell no
50. Save AIM conversations: nFUCK no
51. Save E-mails: sometimes
52. Forward secret E-mails: I will slit some throats if I get forwards so no.
53. Wish you were someone else: sometimes
54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: no
55. Wear calogne/perfume: yes
56. Kiss: Sure
57. Cuddle: With wicca yes
58. Go online for longer than eight hours at a time: no
--------HAVE YOU EVER---------
59. Fallen for your best friend?: no
60. Made out with JUST a friend?: no
61. Kissed two people in the same day?: no
62 Had sex with two different people in the same day?: no
68. Cheated on someone?: no
69. Been cheated on?: not as far as i know
71. Done something you regret?: yeah
--------DO YOU...-----------
82. Color your hair? Let me count the colors
83. Have tattoos?: i want too
84. Have piercings?: yea
85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:no
86. Own a webcam?: yes
87. Own a thong?: haha, no
88. Ever get off the damn computer? yea.
89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?: I failed German BECAUSE I WASN’T THERE
90. Habla espanol: I would like to
91. Quack?: MIGHTY DUCKS!!!
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Vampire Diaries Ebay
Sep. 27th, 2004 | 05:22 am
I realized just now that I was outbid and add insult to injury it was from someone who never even used ebay.. damnit lol.. So i put it a max bid of 80 dollars which I so cannot afford but am willing to waste because I can turn around and sell that game for much more when I am done. I will go up to 100 need it be but nothing more lol .. isn't that sad that I am gonna pay 100 dollars for a game that might not even work on my computer??? Oh dear I am pathetic....
Anywho I just watched bowling for columbine and I must say Michael Moore is a genius. Our government is truely screwy and our nation is even screwier. I mean all I can say is he is a genius
Got my alter bridge cd. Man let me tell you those guys did themselves one better by ditching their lead singer and getting a guy whose voice is just mind blowing. NOt to mention he is so hot.
Talked to Hj today and I wanted to hit him. He called last night. And I wasn't home so I called him back. Turns out he is moving to Utah with his dad.. (which I found out from his mom) and he quit school which I can't bitch at him about. Well anyways he was in the car at Mcdonalds when I called him back .. and I was like you know what I don't even know you anymore.. (i thought this not said it ) so when he told me to hold on.. I hung up and didn't call back. He didn't call back so I suppose it was a mutal annoyance. I will call him back tomorrow and hope he gets his sit together and quits acting like an immature ass. Ok lol got that out.
Will leaves today. I am sad. I am gonna miss him. He told me his family isn't going back to South Africa because it's like really bad reverse racism. He really needs to stay I mean who else is gonna be an ass and call me Winter?.. Man I dunno what I will do if Allyn ever does quit. I think I would quit too. That's sounds awful but I would.
Yea jon told us to buy everything we were holding before a ceratin date.. but when I looked in the drawer to get my Flight of the Navigator movie the fucking thing was gone.. I was like hell fucking no.. so I looked in the computer.. it was gone.. I was like you mean to tell me that you SOLD the movie I SPECIALLY ordered. Uhh. Bastards. Yea. So I am off now.
Anywho I just watched bowling for columbine and I must say Michael Moore is a genius. Our government is truely screwy and our nation is even screwier. I mean all I can say is he is a genius
Got my alter bridge cd. Man let me tell you those guys did themselves one better by ditching their lead singer and getting a guy whose voice is just mind blowing. NOt to mention he is so hot.
Talked to Hj today and I wanted to hit him. He called last night. And I wasn't home so I called him back. Turns out he is moving to Utah with his dad.. (which I found out from his mom) and he quit school which I can't bitch at him about. Well anyways he was in the car at Mcdonalds when I called him back .. and I was like you know what I don't even know you anymore.. (i thought this not said it ) so when he told me to hold on.. I hung up and didn't call back. He didn't call back so I suppose it was a mutal annoyance. I will call him back tomorrow and hope he gets his sit together and quits acting like an immature ass. Ok lol got that out.
Will leaves today. I am sad. I am gonna miss him. He told me his family isn't going back to South Africa because it's like really bad reverse racism. He really needs to stay I mean who else is gonna be an ass and call me Winter?.. Man I dunno what I will do if Allyn ever does quit. I think I would quit too. That's sounds awful but I would.
Yea jon told us to buy everything we were holding before a ceratin date.. but when I looked in the drawer to get my Flight of the Navigator movie the fucking thing was gone.. I was like hell fucking no.. so I looked in the computer.. it was gone.. I was like you mean to tell me that you SOLD the movie I SPECIALLY ordered. Uhh. Bastards. Yea. So I am off now.
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We all go a little mad sometimes
Aug. 24th, 2004 | 02:22 pm
Time for an update. My updates are so far between but I am on the internet most frequently. Anyways got a new cat named Bastian. He is 3 years old and I adopted him from petsmart. He seems to be getting along well here. He is still very afraid of the other pets but in time he will adjust.
Also I would like to add for memory purpose that I think it's highly amusing that Steven pretends to have a social life after I told him basically how creepy it was for him to e-mail me 5 times demanding to know why I haven't e-mailed him back in 5 days. It's like that is the exact reason I stopped seeing him in person. The constant phone calls and visits to my work had me screaming stalker. Which he is.. But yea since he has become social all of the sudden it gets me off the hook to actually e-mail him back. I really did get myself in some kind of mess when I started talking to him again. I suddenly remember why I stopped in the first place. Numero uno stalkering .. number two because he had NO personality and I am WAY to eccentric for someone like that. I need someone like me who is fun and weird.. Anyways so I really rather regret talking to him again is what I was getting at.
I have to work today and I don't want to. Kara was right the longer you are off the less you wanna go back.
AND HOLY HELL my phonebill next month is $100.08 because I sent pictures off my phone to my e-mail..they said they would only charge me a one time fee of $15.00 if I used the internet on my phone without having that specific package and here I am charged $50.00 extra dollars?? That is highway robbery! I am not gonna argue.. I will pay it.. arguing doesn't work with sprint. They know not of this tactic. So I am gonna have to pay the bill and just get that vision package added on my phone cause that is just crazy.. I have never paid that much for my bill.. I have paid close but not that.
Speaking of phone I had the oddest dream today. I dreamnt that I was in some sort of training for work and I was sitting next to Anthony Steible. We had those desks from elementry school. He kept going in my desk and taking out my phone. My supervisor was trying to get us to figure out what these words meant on a chalkboard and came over to me and looked at Anthony and goes let me have that. So he took my phone and said I would get it back only when someone figured out the words on the board and their connection. So Anthony felt bad and gave me his cellphone and I was angry and threw it on the floor and the odd thing was.. noone noticed in a room of silence... so when I went to go pick up his phone I noticed on the chalkboard.. that the words wern't words at all.. they formed a picture.. and the picture was a cat sitting on a graduation cap. I was so happy I screamed what it was.. and before I got my phone back I woke up......
VERY ODD.. Why am I dreaming about Anthony Steible I haven't even seen him in like 3 years which is odd.. and why is it that noone heard me smash his phone on the ground.. Dreams are odd indeed.. I was even intimidated my Jonathan in my dream.
Been at my Job a year 2 days ago. The longest thing I have ever comitted to. Well besides a few unmentionable things that put a pang in my stomach to this very day.
1. Using band names spell out your whole name.
A- Aerosmith
U-U2
T-Tantric
U- UltraVox
M- Matchbox 20
S- Saybia
T- Tonic
A- Alabama
N- No Doubt
L- Lillix
E- Evanescence
Y- Yes
2] Have you ever had a song written about you? -- I don't know
3] What song makes you cry? -- Actually a Few
4] What song makes you happy? -- Shoop- Salt N' Peppa
5] What do you like to listen to before bed? -- Nothing.. But I guess Hanson
6] What was the best band you ever saw live? -- Hanson
7] Who was your idol when you were little? -- Reba Mcentire
8] First album you ever bought? -- Dirty Dancing Soundtrack
9] Name a song that reminds you of someone and why? - Konstantine by Something Corporate remind me of HJ
Well I think that is a sufficent update
Also I would like to add for memory purpose that I think it's highly amusing that Steven pretends to have a social life after I told him basically how creepy it was for him to e-mail me 5 times demanding to know why I haven't e-mailed him back in 5 days. It's like that is the exact reason I stopped seeing him in person. The constant phone calls and visits to my work had me screaming stalker. Which he is.. But yea since he has become social all of the sudden it gets me off the hook to actually e-mail him back. I really did get myself in some kind of mess when I started talking to him again. I suddenly remember why I stopped in the first place. Numero uno stalkering .. number two because he had NO personality and I am WAY to eccentric for someone like that. I need someone like me who is fun and weird.. Anyways so I really rather regret talking to him again is what I was getting at.
I have to work today and I don't want to. Kara was right the longer you are off the less you wanna go back.
AND HOLY HELL my phonebill next month is $100.08 because I sent pictures off my phone to my e-mail..they said they would only charge me a one time fee of $15.00 if I used the internet on my phone without having that specific package and here I am charged $50.00 extra dollars?? That is highway robbery! I am not gonna argue.. I will pay it.. arguing doesn't work with sprint. They know not of this tactic. So I am gonna have to pay the bill and just get that vision package added on my phone cause that is just crazy.. I have never paid that much for my bill.. I have paid close but not that.
Speaking of phone I had the oddest dream today. I dreamnt that I was in some sort of training for work and I was sitting next to Anthony Steible. We had those desks from elementry school. He kept going in my desk and taking out my phone. My supervisor was trying to get us to figure out what these words meant on a chalkboard and came over to me and looked at Anthony and goes let me have that. So he took my phone and said I would get it back only when someone figured out the words on the board and their connection. So Anthony felt bad and gave me his cellphone and I was angry and threw it on the floor and the odd thing was.. noone noticed in a room of silence... so when I went to go pick up his phone I noticed on the chalkboard.. that the words wern't words at all.. they formed a picture.. and the picture was a cat sitting on a graduation cap. I was so happy I screamed what it was.. and before I got my phone back I woke up......
VERY ODD.. Why am I dreaming about Anthony Steible I haven't even seen him in like 3 years which is odd.. and why is it that noone heard me smash his phone on the ground.. Dreams are odd indeed.. I was even intimidated my Jonathan in my dream.
Been at my Job a year 2 days ago. The longest thing I have ever comitted to. Well besides a few unmentionable things that put a pang in my stomach to this very day.
1. Using band names spell out your whole name.
A- Aerosmith
U-U2
T-Tantric
U- UltraVox
M- Matchbox 20
S- Saybia
T- Tonic
A- Alabama
N- No Doubt
L- Lillix
E- Evanescence
Y- Yes
2] Have you ever had a song written about you? -- I don't know
3] What song makes you cry? -- Actually a Few
4] What song makes you happy? -- Shoop- Salt N' Peppa
5] What do you like to listen to before bed? -- Nothing.. But I guess Hanson
6] What was the best band you ever saw live? -- Hanson
7] Who was your idol when you were little? -- Reba Mcentire
8] First album you ever bought? -- Dirty Dancing Soundtrack
9] Name a song that reminds you of someone and why? - Konstantine by Something Corporate remind me of HJ
Well I think that is a sufficent update
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Cuteness
Aug. 18th, 2004 | 08:30 pm
i have heartburn.. lol I thought I would share that. I would also like to share a cutness moment I had at work today. This little boy comes up to me and goes.. how much is this.. pointing at a game.. where I reply.. 50 dollars and he goes.. oh. so about 5 minutes later her comes up to me again and goes.. how EXACTLY am I going to get 50 dollars?.. where I reply.. I don't mow the lawn.. do the dishes... ask your parents... he gives me this contemplative look at walks off where i hear him say to his mother.. first do we have a lawnmower and next do you have 50 dollars... it was so funny! It made my whole night. We all got the 3rd degree about giving our opinions on movies... Ok when you work in a video store they ENCOURAGE you to give your opinions on movies bad or good.. but apparently some lady called and said that 3 people told her a movie was bad(and she agreed it was) but it's not very professional to give our opinions where they are not needed... i was like .. well fuck..don't ask then.. So yea that pissed me off..
yea so anyways steven is giving me the willies. redrum.. redrum redrum!!!!
yea so anyways steven is giving me the willies. redrum.. redrum redrum!!!!
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Website settled
Aug. 18th, 2004 | 08:27 pm
Finally got all my website stuff settled.. me and my business savvy.. well all it took was a few e-mails. lol. Those people are weird. Anyways work was long but I got to work with Shirley so my day was good. I am just so glad I don't have to work this weekend or the next or the next or the next... yea you get the idea. I think the painting I am most proud of thus far is my lion one. Everyone may disagree and say it's not my finest.. but it feels so close to my soul..*sobs* I am getting all emotional! Yea we so practically knicked a blanket from the goodwill it was funny.. my mom ripped the tag off and we got a 20 dollar blanket for 4 bucks... wrong?? No those bastards overprice their stuff!yea that's all
Well I am going to see what great adventures the Baudlaire's can take me on tonight! Or this morning....
Well I am going to see what great adventures the Baudlaire's can take me on tonight! Or this morning....
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rant
Jul. 7th, 2004 | 08:30 pm
Ever have those evil thoughts that parade around your head all day?? Well here are mine. If I see one more fat girl wearing clothes that are too small for her and her gut hangoing out all over the place I am gonna scream. I mean they make nice clothes for bigger girls. They don't need to be wearing that. Rant 2 I can't stand women who don't wear bras. Ok I think I am done now. That is just irritating. Hmm what else can I say today. Ahh yes nice clean shaven legs. I took a break in my journal writing for about 3 hours maybe two. I cleaned my paintbrushes or i tried to clean them .. my floliage brush is still clumpy from where I ran out of paint thinner. I but i say in about three days i should have all of them nicely clean. I have taken quite a fancy to painting because I am not bad at it. What I lack is the knowledge to keep my brushes nice and clean. so going completely off the subject.
I feel like i have completely lost sight of the things I really love and that depresses me. Like my music. How i loved thee. I haven't written a song in over 5 months. And that is very very very depressing for me. It seems like everything is screwed around. My golas,loves, aspirations, my sleep even.. etc... So I know I must rebuild myself from the ground up.. or the head down.. wherever I start first.
I make too many promises to myself.. I am gonna do this... and on monday I am gonna start that.. Next week is my week.. next month is my month and these days... turns into weeks,,, and my weeks have turned into months and sadly enough my months to year.. and this a run-on sentance. Who can think of grammar and punctuation at a time like this?? I will tell you who me.. because that's how I am... a thought for every second....and 60 for every minute... so this is how I make promises , this is how I screw up and this is how I dissapoint myself time and again.....I have a thousand excuses and even more answers but the questions never fit. I am a contradiction.. So I end thisl...
Tomoorw is my day.
I feel like i have completely lost sight of the things I really love and that depresses me. Like my music. How i loved thee. I haven't written a song in over 5 months. And that is very very very depressing for me. It seems like everything is screwed around. My golas,loves, aspirations, my sleep even.. etc... So I know I must rebuild myself from the ground up.. or the head down.. wherever I start first.
I make too many promises to myself.. I am gonna do this... and on monday I am gonna start that.. Next week is my week.. next month is my month and these days... turns into weeks,,, and my weeks have turned into months and sadly enough my months to year.. and this a run-on sentance. Who can think of grammar and punctuation at a time like this?? I will tell you who me.. because that's how I am... a thought for every second....and 60 for every minute... so this is how I make promises , this is how I screw up and this is how I dissapoint myself time and again.....I have a thousand excuses and even more answers but the questions never fit. I am a contradiction.. So I end thisl...
Tomoorw is my day.
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Jun. 17th, 2004 | 08:31 pm
Well I seen the new Harry Potter movie and I must say I am very disapointed by it. I thought it would actually stick closely to the storyline. I mean in followed the story in spirit but not literally. Beautiful movie though. Visually stunning. And that Daniel Radcliffe turned into a migghty fine looking youg man. I am so bored. I also saw the day after tomorrow which was really good but I can't stand being that tense during a movie. I feel kinda tired right now and it is too early to feel tired. Well that was my great update
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just like me
Jun. 6th, 2004 | 08:32 pm
You ever come across those people who just genrally think they are better than you? I have had too much experiance in this area. I must stress this as well. do you ever come across those people who just HAVE to know more than you. or think that their life is just so intresting. anyways now that I have setup my post I will go on. This woman today was so mean to me. but was really nice to allyn.. i just don't know. I know my life is not intresting but at least I am nice and have heart. There are just too many people who are rush rush rush.. and they rush through everything. Why doesn't anyone just stop and look around and the scenery? Also I made a post on my deadjournal about being an eclectic wiccan awhile back a long time ago.. and then someone just now decided to tell me that I was ignorant .. for only 'pretend wiccans' are eclectic. Where she got this I have no idea. Well anyways this was before I chose a path. It's just one of those people who lurk around the net trying to pove someone wrong. I mean I can use big words too. Fucking go me. I just wanted to get that out. It just bugs me when people on the net comment about me when they don't know me. That's a dead give-away right? they don't know me. Yet it still bothers me. Mostly because it's about my faith. and how dare someone call me ignorant about that. lol rant rant rant. A studying degree in religion philosophy a scholar doesn't make.
A customer at work goes " you look so tired." I don't remember feeling tired maybe I just was looking shitty. Or maybe it was because I hadn't eaten all day. I did eat some french fries around 1 and they made me absolutely sick. I have no appetite. Don't know why. I didn't get half of my closing duties done tonight. It was only shirley and I and I barely had a second to get away for water. So for 7 hours I delt with the good the bad and the really hideous. After work I put 2 dollars of gas in my car lol and with gas at $1.98 that was pointless. I had five dollars but I got a drink and put 2 in the bank so my account wasn't overdrawn.
Oh yea amber came into my work today and she had (niycke nike nickey nicki nyke.. I have no idea how she spells her name) and temple with her. That was nice . A friendly face in chaos. Yea so I am done pounding away at the keys . I haven't said all i could have. I have a million thoughts running through my head so i will end this now.
A customer at work goes " you look so tired." I don't remember feeling tired maybe I just was looking shitty. Or maybe it was because I hadn't eaten all day. I did eat some french fries around 1 and they made me absolutely sick. I have no appetite. Don't know why. I didn't get half of my closing duties done tonight. It was only shirley and I and I barely had a second to get away for water. So for 7 hours I delt with the good the bad and the really hideous. After work I put 2 dollars of gas in my car lol and with gas at $1.98 that was pointless. I had five dollars but I got a drink and put 2 in the bank so my account wasn't overdrawn.
Oh yea amber came into my work today and she had (niycke nike nickey nicki nyke.. I have no idea how she spells her name) and temple with her. That was nice . A friendly face in chaos. Yea so I am done pounding away at the keys . I haven't said all i could have. I have a million thoughts running through my head so i will end this now.
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DAMNED HARRY POTTER
May. 15th, 2004 | 08:35 pm
Man I wish tickets would go on sale for Harry Potter already. I am starting to freak out and think i am not gonna get tickets. All the tix in Westlake are already sold out so I am getting antsy.. Err I shall check every 6 hours lol... Yes it's pathetic but do I care?? Hell no.
I feel so tired but i can't sleep. I hate when that happens.
I need to clean my room it is a fucking mess. I should e-mail Steven and see how he is doing .. since i completely broke his entire world.. And I did for good damn reason too. But i feel bad for just "dumping him" and never calling back or talking to him again.. All I can say is at least I got a good trip to the zoo out of it :D. Evil I am.
I have been being way to obsessive on memories and how things used to be. Simpler yet more chaotic. I also think of how foolish I was and everyone around me was. I guess you're stupid when you're 15. But seeings how I am not 15 and I had to grow up and move on from childhood dreams I feel somewhat empty. I really feel like I am wasiting my life sometimes and I don't know how to fix it. Inch by inch my dreams,hopes,inpirations,loves, and everything that has ever influenced me are being clipped away into a non-refillable void. I suppose it's late and I am being overly dramatic. So yea lol I will shut it now.
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Mar. 17th, 2004 | 08:36 pm
Well,it's been awhile since i updated. Still got my job at blockbuster go me. Although I am soon to put in my 2 weeks because I hate that shit. I know i have done so much and so much has happened since i last updated and I don't know where to start. Hmm Me and Thomas are getting married. My cat ran away at some point and then returned home( Ohio legand says if a cat leaves home never to retun.. death is to come on swift wings).. enough about superstitions. I started my own coven.. How cool am I? psh.. what else. I've been being pretty nostalgic lately. I keep going back in my mind to a different time. I need to quit because it's getting irritating. My dog Wicca had puppies. My brother has one of them. Hmm i don't know what else I am not a very intresting person. Oh yes my car has one more payment and she's mine.
Ihope all my old online friends are still hanging out and being groovy. Speaking of which I need to call HJ. HANSON HAS A NEW CD!! I got it the day it came out.. got the very last one. I was so happy. Great Cd although not as good as I expected for 3 years of waiting. Hanson fans want a signed blood contract of goodness. Specially ones from 97 like me. I mean it is absolutely wonderful.. but could have been better. Also a shameless plug http://www.benjelen.com
he is outstanding. Love his piano vibes. Also everyone needs to check out Van Helsing.. great great movie.. shitty ending.. but great movie. Well I suppose that is all for now.Link | Leave a comment | Add to Memories | Tell a Friend
Some say it's over but I don't
Sep. 22nd, 2003 | 08:38 pm
update update update.... WEeeee... Well I guess things have changed somewhat I have almost been working at blockbuster for a month and that's just snazzy..Everyone is so awesome there.I am very thankful to get to know such great people.And I get free rentals so that is the shit too.
I admit I am obsessed with ebay... lol.. They have such awesome stuff.
I finally got 2 cd's I have been wanting woohoo... John Mayer-Heavier Things and Jason MraZ-waiting for my rocket to come.And both are so freakin awesome.Next week I am gonna get hilary duff and michelle branch.Yuppers.I need to get some clothes.
You so I had a spooky dream about Steven last night.... I won't get into but for memory purposes I want to just put I had it here.He seems to be opening up and he called me yesterday that little pansy ass.
But yea that's all for now and my life is boring..
I admit I am obsessed with ebay... lol.. They have such awesome stuff.
I finally got 2 cd's I have been wanting woohoo... John Mayer-Heavier Things and Jason MraZ-waiting for my rocket to come.And both are so freakin awesome.Next week I am gonna get hilary duff and michelle branch.Yuppers.I need to get some clothes.
You so I had a spooky dream about Steven last night.... I won't get into but for memory purposes I want to just put I had it here.He seems to be opening up and he called me yesterday that little pansy ass.
But yea that's all for now and my life is boring..
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teddy
Aug. 8th, 2003 | 08:38 pm
Dear Dear Dear.....I keep saying i will update and never do so here is an update.Teddy knows I like him and now i feel uneasy.But then again at least he knows.Kara is over we are watching the disney channel how exciting!!!there really isn't too much to update on.I have to have another interview with blockbuster so I am excited and I get new shoes next week :D Well that's all for now.
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Tear me down
Jan. 19th, 2003 | 08:40 pm
Yea so anyways I haven't updated in how long??Ions?Yea well I don't have much to say.I have been taking night classes weeeee!!!Actually it's not so bad.I am going to earn my degree in E-Business Technology as soon as I get my basic shit done.Hmm what else?Life has been ok I suppose.Nothing to drastic or life changing has happened and that's a good thing.I am still waiting to hear back about a procedure I want to have done(don't ask me about it lol cause I won't tell you :D)Hopefully I will get apporved and all will go smoothly.I currently have an obsession with diet caffeine free pepsi!!It tastes SO SO good to me.I wanna get a tatoo I think I might.I am not sure of what yet though.Something mystical and
descriptive of myself.Maybe a pentacle and a moon twined with ivy..Lol I dunno.Well I suppose that's all for now!Adios!
descriptive of myself.Maybe a pentacle and a moon twined with ivy..Lol I dunno.Well I suppose that's all for now!Adios!